out of neverland

May 18, 2010

it’s only been a week since i have come back from my 2-week trip to “neverland”, and my world as i left it remains the same, if not worse (yes, it’s worse). neverland wasn’t really the neverland where i wanted to go, but it was far enough to run away to. it was new, it was different, and i barely exist in that world. it felt good not to be seen. it felt good not to be at the center. i wonder why i did not have that recharged battery or that renewed energy. i wonder why we still feel like soldier toys in battle.

i wonder why anywhere but here is neverland. i wonder why i never really can fly. i wonder why this reality is still limbo. i wonder why i still speak in riddles. i wonder why i still alienate readers. i wonder if i had ever been to neverland.

In that company in Paranaque, I…

May 14, 2010

…had my first job

…learned a lot in grammar, editing, and writing

…earned a considerable salary

…understood what work slave meant

…knew what a good boss is

…despised the bad boss

…met intelligent people, in literature, math, logic, politics, philosophy, and the various sciences

…met geeky people (who know about prenatal vitamins, comic book heroes, atomic structures, old-school music, and ancient history)

…admired brilliant people

…laughed at pretentious people

…enjoyed long lunch breaks and the witty, funny, and nonsense conversations

…passed the day with incessant showbiz talks with seatmates (until the supervisor gets irritated haha)

…shared secrets with good friends

…shed tears with emphatic friends

…met the best of friends

…am saying my goodbye… only to the company…

not to the memories, never to my friends.