keng turns 3!!!

April 30, 2010

Last April 26, Keng celebrated her third birthday, only she’s as tall as a 5-year-old already. Her grandmother cooked her the classic Pinoy handa, you know, the spaghetti, barbeque, chicken, etc. I wish I could celebrate a birthday with her, but she always celebrates it abroad, unless I can travel there if I am employed in a long distance moving company, but I’m not. Maybe some other birthdays, we could be together. She’s already having mood swings. haha. There are times when she just doesn’t want to face the webcam, unlike before, when she giggles and smiles every time she sees us on their laptop. There are times though, when she would just show us her new “tricks”, like that cheerleader dance that she learned when her father brought her to watch her uncle’s intrams in schools. Or that new song she is singing with her mom. And Keng is now putting makeup on! Nauna pa sa kin!

 

 

I always pray that she grows up to be a fine young woman. I wish I could always be by her side to guide her the best that I could, but I am not. I am just praying that she always gets divine guidance, and I am sure she would. Happy birthday, dear. I love you so much.

our cancer genes

I’ve already shared in my other blog how I discovered that my mom has breast cancer, when I thought she was just a hypochondriac. She talked to me and somehow apologized that all she could give me was her cancer genes. To comfort her, I told her I won’t get cancer, though I have a riskier lifestyle than she has. But who could really tell, right? Her sister also died of a rare cancer, after having survived leukemia when she was a child. I have immediate relatives both in the mother and father side who had various cancers and other dreaded diseases. If I have lots of money, I would get that term life insurance for all of my relatives. My mom actually made fun of her and dad’s sickness. She said, they make a good tandem: a cancer patient and a kidney transplant.

She got a bit more worried when her mother’s sister (her kabarkada) who is just about her age was recently diagnosed also with breast cancer. She felt like it increased the chances that I, her child, and her other sister would get the disease, too. I don’t wanna be stricken with paranoia, but I’m not quite assured I won’t have that disease. Who could really tell, right?

walking on

In this far, far away land, I’ve been walking around for almost the whole day. I never really seem to get tired of walking these days, especially when walking takes my mind off away from things. In a day, I may have walked a mile, and there is only but a hint of tiredness. I may have shed off some pounds already, making those best weight loss supplements useless. Perhaps, when you are seeing some things new, you’ll never notice the weight of your body; you’ll never remember what is. Oftentimes, I hate walking long distances. But now, I would give up so much if I could walk on and on with the sand under my feet.

unknown territory

I felt disoriented in the last couple of weeks. Nowadays, I rarely worry about things (especially about work or auto insurance quotes). I’ve been doing things I never did before, or things I ought not to do. Generally, I am a careful person, hardly adventurous. But lately I’ve been very carefree (careless?). I guess this is my version of living life to the fullest, or perhaps bordering on risking work. Heck, I’ve been moving from one place to the next totally unknown to me. Just guess if this is figurative speech. I’ve been talking to strangers, and there’s not a bit of fear. Guess again. I think I’ve been treading on unknown territory, but I wish I could go back to my own. Figuratively speaking.