too early for stress

Warning: ranting post.

Recently, I’ve met so many relatives, and all of them already knew I am studying law. It was only in my first semester in law school, and everybody was already expecting me to be a lawyer. I haven’t finished the first semester yet! Of course, I, more than most of them, want to be one, and there is no doubt in my mind that I would try the best I could to be one. But the expectations are overwhelming. This is precisely the reason I do not want to tell people that I am studying again, but I couldn’t just ask my parents not to tell anyone. There are plenty of possibilities that I cannot finish on time, or finish law school, or pass the bar. I could have a change of plans, or I could not juggle work and school. I could live abroad, or study something else, or start a family. The point is I do not want people expecting, as if the only reason I would not finish is lack of intelligence or irresponsibility. Argh!

More than that, I do not like it when everybody seemed to have a say on what I would do when I become a lawyer. When asked, I always say, “I hope I can work on human rights,” and then people would ALWAYS express their disagreement and suggest some other lawyer work (I can compile them all in micro sd!). The truth is I haven’t decided yet (though I am sure I want to help those in need); for goodness’ sake, I’m still on my first semester!