carpe diem? maybe not!

September 1, 2008

I like Dead Poets Society. It’s a great movie. Good acting, good actors, quotable lines, poetry, embracing yourself, following your dream, the idealism—I love it. But this is not about the movie; this is about the phrase that I first heard from the movie: carpe diem.

I like the idea. Seizing the day. It’s appealing to me. From then on, I’ve heard the idea so many times uttered using different words, tones, and faces. Really, if I could do that, that would be great.

There are so many things I want to do, but so many things I have to do first. Trying to make most of my life when I simply can’t YET is very stressful and tiring. And most enjoyable things require spending money and time, which I do not have right now. I must admit though, I haven’t done really fun stuff for years now. My life was sucked out of me, and life begins to suck. Haha. Maybe I think it does because of this carpe diem thing; I just cannot do it.

But then, my life does not suck. I like spending Sundays lying in bed all day and watching TV. I like resting at weeknights after work. I never want to force myself doing things when all I want to do is to sleep. Wanting to achieve things in a short time can be really depressing. So, I’ll just wait for my time. It will come. No pressure. Then, I’ll seize my day!